Ewwie so i have this disgusting cold & a head ache from not getting much sleep at all, gah kill me i hate being sick. i have to stay in bed all freaking day. my mom wont allow me to step a foot outside until i get better . i even tried to sneak out just to sniff some fresh air, my mom caught me. jeese she is so over protecting. i love her in all but she needs to hop off my balls . i cant even eat ice cream anymore ! do you know how hard it is for a girl like me to not be able to eat ice cream for a week ! its killing me , my friends all invited me to go see that new movie “lovely Bones ” i read a couple pages of the book, (they gave a pretty good discription of how she was getting raped) but its so far a good book, but i want to see the movie, but i cant go because im “sick” i just wanna yell at my mom and tell her to calm the crap down, its not like im dieing of a disease . shes so annoying !

lesson learned ~

try really hard not to get sick , if you have one of those over protective parents that wont stop bothering you until you tell them whats wrong , then please try not to get sick, it will make  the matter even worse , even if your faking sick to get out of school . trust me been there done that .

have any over protective parents that wont leave you alone, write down something they did in the comment area (: <3

- stargirl

gahh, goodness winter break is over and tomorrow is the first day of school in 2010 (: im eexcited but then im not. knowing me its because im scared what people are gonna think of me every second of the day when im at school . “is my hair okay?” “i need coverup” “this shirt is a little low will they think im a slut ?” “how am i sopposed to walk down the hallway” my whole entire life iv been pushing myself so that i could get into the “IN” crowd. you know with all the pretty guys&girls who are filthy rich and have everything they ever wanted. yeah them. i mean who dosnt want to be their friend. go over to their house and hang out , feel wanted by important people. but even though i try so hard to get noticed i can never get the actual courage to go up to them and actually start a conversation. i never know what to say or what to do, im too shy, and i know that. thats why for 2010 i want to change . i want to be one of those girls who can run down the hallway screaming like you dont care who hears you, i want to be the one laughing . i want to be the one who started the possy circle. i am going to change :D hbu?

just know this, changing isnt somthing just anyone can do , you have to be sure to put all your heart into it , other wise in the future u will surely fail . & no one wants to see that (:

- stargirl :)

i hate it when after you and a loved one has broken up someone always has to ask what happened. its okay if its ur best friend but for someone you dont even know or u barely even no for a matter of fact. its so annoying , really the first thought that comes to my mind when someone asks me about what happend with our breakup, i just want to slap them or duck tape their mouth to shut up, its already hard enough dealing with the fact that the relationship is over i dont want to be reminded on why we broke up in the first place, really if someone is sobbing over the breakup, dont ask “what happened 0,0?” it just makes the problem worse and makes the person sob even more. people who ask me this just makes me want to go cry in a whole, they are just being little eavs droppers, who want to get in on the facts. i hate it most when your crying ur heart out and really the only people you want near you are ur friends to cheer you up, but its not only ur friends who come and join the sob circle, its people from other grades and people who dont even go to the same school .try to cheer me up .i know you guys are probably trying to be nice but i dont think having a stranger come up to me with a strange smile will cheer me up one bit..

just saying

- stargirl

My boyfriend.. well actually now ex boyfriend broke up with me over TEXT MESSAGE ! I’m so aggravated in him ! He said that I would be the one to break up with him , he said he loved me, I hate it when guys say this but in the end its like they never even said it, or they take it all back. If your gonna say something to someone make sure that you mean it, for ex. “I will never leave your side” wow okay you say that but where are you now? I know that most of you are probably thinking, well maybe his feeling changed if his feelings changed he could have at least broken up with me in person and be a real man ): i mean i know we have some difficulties with the public and all , (btw hes shorter then me , when ever we go out people thinks hes my little brother) i really like him, i dont know what went wrong. i dont know if i could move on .. yeah i know what your thinking, im thinking it too .. i fell for a troll.. help ?

-stargirl